Monday, December 29, 2008

Steak with wcg rider and upset.

So i got a steak from wcg rider and instantly went on a heater lol. Need to give him 50% of everything i make, still think this was very +ev for me though. I mean im still SPEWING ALOT just running amazing i guess. Also I was suppose to go clubbing today but i didnt which pisses me off im such a pussy its annoying as hell FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! blabla. Also made a poker vid in the morning and posted it, it was received well so thats kinda cool. Probably going to make another one with Happypixel we will have to see if we have time ect... Should be cool.


new years resolution: NOT BE A PUSSY
Study for lsats(not going to happen)
DONT BE A PUSSY
Do whatever it takes to get a sick life.!
Do well at nyu i guess. w.e.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

lol

i never learn 4th time cry god damn!!!
Feel a little bad about it i guess, I broke relatively easily dont remember like 40% of it though thats a good thing i guess.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

obv i conform

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Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Meaning of life for me and how to go about being happy.

I put alot of thought into this over the years. And I see people making the same mistakes over and over again. I'm guilty of those same mistakes. Lets say a person wants something, but this person won't do it. Now every time I see this I ask myself why? why don't you want to do something that makes you happy? Or why do what would make them happy but they have ass it and fail.
There are a couple of reasons why I think this happens, the first is a pretty obvious one they needed to do to do some work for it, but they didn't want to put in the effort so they failed. A good example of this would be someone who wants to go to nursing school, but gets bad grades. Going to nursing school would make you happy and you would have a good job, but you got bad grades! Why did you get those bad grades because you decided that it was too hard to study all week or you had "something better to do". This is not a valid answer, if you wanted nursing school so bad then do the work. This happens in other areas as well. A couple of my friends wanted to drive cars. Now obliviously driving a car would make thier life easy and its something they really wanted to do, but they didn't put the effort into it. They only went for one class or bullshitted for a week. Then they failed and they are like "OMG OMG how did I fail". Well sir if you tried harder maybe you wouldn't have failed. Now this stop of what I would call blockers is common and relatively easy to bypass it simply involves you putting in the time to accomplish what you want.
There are other blockers that prevent us from being happy with life that are a bit more substantial these are caused by the way he were brought up. Or what I would say is the way they were conditioned by thier parents/society. This is things like coming up to girls and picking them up. Some people are scared of that because they were conditioned to be afraid of coming up to random people are saying hi. This is happens all the time someone will be like "omfg I saw this hot guy/girl but I was too scared to say hi/ask them out". Would asking them out make you life happier of course. But you didn't these blockers are a bit harder to over come because its ingrained in us we have been conditioned since kids. In school, at home, everywhere. The way to recondition yourself is to recognize the problem and constantly put yourself in situation that make you anxious and scared so that eventually through you schema that is to say that we are self correcting beings and earn from experience so that eventually it will become easy to come to some and say "hi lets go out!"